Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Little one- a gift to remember you by.

Today I needed to do something that would help me in grieving the loss of our little one. I decided to buy a special charm for my charm bracelet.

The baby was due in April and so diamonds is what I chose.
This charm represents my third child.

I have placed this charm next to Alyssa and Nathan's charm.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Just Those Few Weeks

This is a very deficult time for our family... We were expecting a little one in April 2010. A special surprise for all of us. We were all very excited. Yesterday, things did not go so well and we lost our little one at 12 weeks. I'm so sad, I was just getting ready to share my news with the world.

I don't want this baby to be forgotten.

Baby..... My eyes hurt from all the tears I've cried since I found out you passed away. Such a loss to our family. Your dad and I are so sad but we want you to know just how much we love and miss you. I know I'll see you someday, but that may be a while as I still have things to do here on earth. You will be in my heart forever. This poem is for you my sweet little one...

For those few weeks

I had you to myself.

And that seems too short a time

to be changed so profoundly.

In those few weeks

I came to know you...

and to love you,

You came to trust me with your life.

Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks

When I lost you,

I lost a lifetime of hopes,

plans, dreams and aspirations...

A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks

It wasn't enough time to convince others

how special and important you were.

How odd, a truly unique person has recently died

and no one is mourning the passing.

Just a mere few weeks

And no "normal" person would cry all night

over a tiny, unfinished baby,

or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.

No one would, so why am I?

You were just those few weeks my little one

you darted in and out of my life too quickly.

But it seems that's all the time you needed

to make my life so much richer

and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

A poem on miscarriage by Susan Erling