This is a very deficult time for our family... We were expecting a little one in April 2010. A special surprise for all of us. We were all very excited. Yesterday, things did not go so well and we lost our little one at 12 weeks. I'm so sad, I was just getting ready to share my news with the world.
I don't want this baby to be forgotten.
Baby..... My eyes hurt from all the tears I've cried since I found out you passed away. Such a loss to our family. Your dad and I are so sad but we want you to know just how much we love and miss you. I know I'll see you someday, but that may be a while as I still have things to do here on earth. You will be in my heart forever. This poem is for you my sweet little one...
For those few weeks
I had you to myself.
And that seems too short a time
to be changed so profoundly.
In those few weeks
I came to know you...
and to love you,
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!
Just those few weeks
When I lost you,
I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams and aspirations...
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.
Just those few weeks
It wasn't enough time to convince others
how special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.
Just a mere few weeks
And no "normal" person would cry all night
over a tiny, unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?
You were just those few weeks my little one
you darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer
and give me a small glimpse of eternity.
A poem on miscarriage by Susan Erling
Oh Christine, my heart goes out to you and your family. Having gone through it myself I can relate to your loss. Time does change things, but you are right, you will always remember your little one. Sending you lots of hugs.
ReplyDeleteChristine,
ReplyDeleteYou are normal. Most people would be depressed and mourning the loss of their child. You need to mourn to make it to the other side. I am hurting for you right now. Thinking of you during this rough time.
Christine, I'm so sorry to learn about your loss. I'm so glad you shared your love for this baby, even though we'll never meet your little one. You are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful...thanks for sharing such personal and dear thoughts to you.
ReplyDeleteI love you
Kelly W.
I'm sorry for your loss, I do believe that you will see your little one someday. You are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteOh Christine, I am so sorry. I also lost a baby at 12 weeks and it's very very difficult. Don't feel guilty for mourning. It needs to be done. That baby was a part of you and it just so hard to describe what it's like to lose it. To honor all the children I have carried, Ben bought me a mothers ring with 5 stones. Each stone is the birthstone of each baby. I love having it on my hand to remind me that I have 3 babies waiting for me in Heaven.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to respond so late...been a while since I have been able to catch up with my blogging friends. What sad news. I don't really know what to say in addition to the very thoughtful comments that others have left. Know that I am thinking and praying for you - not that you will forget, but that you will find healing so that you can always remember the little one, but not always with deep sorrow.
ReplyDeleteHugs
I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. It a tough and emotional time-- but you will get through it-- I love the thought of a charm! Love and prayers to you and yours.
ReplyDelete~Maryann
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I'm so sorry to read about your loss. Sending you hugs of healing and friendship.
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