Sunday, February 27, 2011


Sometimes I feel like I can't do enough
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed
Sometimes I feel like I just can't do it all and then
Sometimes I feel like I just don't want to do it at all.

Nathan has been miserable for days, we just found out he has strep throat, I actually thought he had chicken pox because he had all these little skin lesions but it turns out it's part of the strep. Alyssa too has strep and it would appear that my husband Sean now has it too!
Oh yes these are fun times.
Jack and I are fighting it, but I'm feeling worn down.

Sometimes the timing sucks....

My brother and his family arrived from England on Thursday and I feel like I haven't even seen much of them because we've all been working on our own crazy schedules. Them with the jetlag and me with my sick babies.
I am thrilled that they are here visiting, but did everyone have to get sick NOW? Really?

Sometimes I think we have bad luck.
Sometimes I can't cope and I get grumpy.
Sometimes my grumpiness overtakes and I take it out on those I love the most.
Sometimes I wish I could express my sentiments, my feelings and frustrations.
Sometimes I wish my pride wouldn't overtake my need to ask for help.
Sometimes I just don't want to be the one to advocate.
Sometimes I just need to let it go.
Sometimes I need to just rest and not make it all about therapy.
Sometimes I just need to step back,
take a deep breath and just see past the syndrome and the autism.
There's a beautiful child in there.

Sometimes that child surprises you.

Today that child hugged me when I needed it the most.

Sometimes... most times...
I just wish it could be a little easier.


  1. Oh Christine, it sounds like life is heavy right now. Those valleys we walk through can be really dark and lonely. I am praying that you all get better quickly.

    It really brought tears to my eyes that you got that special hug just when you needed it.

    Sending hugs from afar...

  2. Sweet Christine, my heart goes out to you. That is a lot all at one time.

    As a mom, I feel that at times, I could have written the exact same words.

    Hugs to you and for a speedy recovery for your family.

  3. Don't our kids know when we need that hug? I'm so glad Nathan saw that! I pray that everyone is healthy soon and you get a break to recover. Hugs!