I was reading a couple of Blogs today and found I was excited and thrilled about the progress of other RTS sweeties. Like how Will is signing "HELP" and how Matt is using picture cards to communicate. Then reality set in and I felt sad. I felt sad that Nathan isn't there yet and that maybe it's because I'm not doing enough for him. Maybe I shouldn't be working, but I know that my work is what keeps me sane and what keeps a healthy balance for me. After all I was Christine before I became Alyssa and Nathan's mom. Then I just felt angry and now I've crashed. I've been feeling sad and I guess It's just an "off" day. I guess I'm still mad that all this has happened to our family.
I will meet Nathan's OT for the first time tomorrow morning. I would be lying if I didn't say that the system has let us down. Nathan has not had an OT since he left the hospital at the young age of 5 months and I feel we have a long road ahead of us before we can do any kind of catch up. I guess there was no funding up until just recently. I'm tired of all this crap but will do it because I have to. My little grabber needs me and there's nothing I wouldn't do for him.